Overwhelmed...

Although I haven't written about it, my mind has been rather consumed lately with the health of our pastor. On Thanksgiving day, he had a seizure. Through a scan of his head, a brain tumor was found. He had it removed two weeks ago and has been working diligently in rehab. He received the pathology report yesterday, and it is malignant. The church just sent out the email with that information, and I'll be honest... I just feel really overwhelmed right now. My mind is racing thinking of his precious wife Lauren, his 3 beautiful children Audrey, Reid, and Norah, his amazing ministry at the Village, and most importantly, simply thinking of Matt. In a video he recorded 3 days before the surgery, he spoke about being thankful that God sees him worthy enough to ensure this hardship. And he tweeted about the pathology report being secondary, as God has already numbered his days here on earth. I am thankful to have found our church home at the Village, and to be under the care and teaching of such a Godly man. I know there are so many uncertainties ahead, but instead of worrying myself sick over them (which I do that very easily!), I'm trying to think more positively. I have absolute confidence that my Savior can perform a miracle, and that is what I'm choosing to pray for. That outlook on a scenario like this is much easier said than done for me. I will get there. But let's be honest... right now, I'm just sad.